It’s hard to believe that it’s been 8 months since I last posted. I have gone back and forth as to whether I would ever resurrect this blog or not. But as soon as I was notified that my domain was about to expire I knew that I wasn’t ready to stop blogging.
I make no promises to get back to any sort of blogging schedule. I would rather keep this space for posting when I feel like I need or want to.
A brief recap of the last 8 months….
….The Wingman celebrated his third birthday. Crazy, I know!
….The Pilot was gone for a while with his job and I worked on quite a few projects while he was gone. Hopefully I can blog a bit about some of them!
…In June I became pregnant with our fourth child. At 16 weeks, his heart stopped beating. I went to the hospital, labored for 9 hours, and gave birth to another precious son. It has taken a lot of time to process it all and I know I’m far from being done. But I am sure some posts about his life and late miscarriage will show up here sometime.
…It has been an absolutely horrible few months. There is no other way to describe it. But I am holding onto hope. “Sometimes holding tight [to Truth] feels more like hanging on, but don’t give up. Don’t believe the lie that you should let go. God holds you. Hold tight to Him.” (She Reads Truth by Raechel Myers and Amanda Bible Williams, page 170)
To close this post, I want to share this song. It has been like my anthem over the past year. When I first heard it, I was at a Tenth Avenue North concert and the song hadn’t even been recorded. That tour was the first time they sang it for people. I sat there with tears pouring down my face, not knowing how the song would grow even more important to me. I hope that it is a blessing and encouragement to you as well.
Oh Bonnie. This post made me cry. I’m so sorry to hear about your miscarriage. That is so hard. I wish I could come over and hug you and bring you a big package of your favourite things. (I hope others have done that for you.) Be gentle with yourself.
A friend of mine has also experienced several late-term miscarriages (after having one daughter). If it would help you to read another mom’s stories, or to connect with her, here’s her blog: http://www.babystylista.com/.
Thanks for sharing the song that inspired you. Music often helps me too. Hugs and prayers to you during this time.
Thank you for your sweet words, Bonnie. That honestly means a lot. I will definitely check out her blog. Thank you so much for sharing the link!
Thank you so much for your honesty and bravery in sharing. I love your heart that is willing to speak up about what is not always easy to say. I also really like this song so I appreciate this post even more. Looking forward to seeing God’s hand in the future of our lives.
Thank you Laura! ❤