Growing up, I always had the dream of being a famous published author. I wanted to be a novelist. Words inspired me. There is nothing like the feeling you get when you read something that is just incredibly well written.
I tried my hand at fiction. Plots came to me that inspired me for a while….and then they died off. Several stories began, but I realized I didn’t have a full enough plot to make a real book. My novels turned into short stories. Several books were never finished.
Somewhere I have my series about the little girl named Felicity that I wrote when I was in middle school. And also buried somewhere is my mystery (unfinished) with the bad guy named Tacomel. In our basement somewhere in a red notebook is the historical fiction I was writing about Ruth from the Bible. That is the book I got the farthest in and I still hope to finish it, even if I never pursue publication.
For years I have prayed that if God wanted me to write a book, that He would give me a plot. I don’t want to just put words on a page or have some worn out, cliched plot. I wanted to have something worth sharing.
I think God might have given me my plot.
Although it turns out it’s not fiction.
For several months now I have felt the pull to write a book on miscarriage. I process things through writing, so I know it would be helpful for me. And there are not many resources out there for going through this kind of tragedy.
I’m scared. Who am I to write a book about that topic? I’m still in the middle of grief, so I don’t have all the answers.
I’ve tried to talk myself out of it. But then there will be times when I’m driving where I think of something that I really want to share and I want to pull over right then and there to write it down so I don’t forget it. There are times when the pull on my heart is strong.
That is what I am currently procrastinating on. Trying to decide if I should go for it or not.
Maybe I will end up being a published author someday, even if it’s not what I imagined as a child.
Or maybe I will turn my writing into blog posts and simply share them here.
Either way, I have some writing to do!