Today’s guest blogger wished to remain anonymous.  I appreciate her willingness to share.  When you have a miscarriage, it is the loss of your baby.  There are no words that can adequately describe that kind of pain.  Here my friend shares something she wrote after the loss of her daughter.

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Rachel Hope . . . a name for the child I will never know. Why did we name you? A name confirms your identity as our child, as a human being. Without a name, it is much too easy to refer to you as “our baby,” “the baby,” or even “it.” Without a name, I know you are our child, but a name confirms it.

            People have names. You were not simply an amorphous glob of cells within my body. You were, you are, our child. So we named you.

We name you because, even though we will never hold you, you are a part of our lives. We named you to establish your place in our family as our first child. We named you because we love you.

Rachel Hope . . . the child I will never know. I love you.

Honestly, this 31 day series did not come at a good time for me.  I had been planning for several months to do a series on TTC in October.  I began compiling a list of different topics to address as well as ideas for people to guest post.

And then in August, I discovered I was pregnant.  It was odd, because even when I was staring at the positive test, something just felt off.  I wasn’t overwhelmingly excited as I would have expected.  I soon realized that something was indeed wrong and five days later I had a miscarriage.

We ended up getting pregnant again very quickly.  I discovered at the beginning of this series that I was pregnant again.  And then, two days ago….our precious baby went to heaven.

I have been putting off writing this post, because I don’t even know how to write about it.  And yet miscarriages can be such a huge part of TTC that I feel that it needs to be addressed.  Perhaps someday I will be able to blog about my experiences, but I do not feel that I am ready.

Tomorrow I have a guest poster who will share.  And the next day I will have a post for anyone who has had a loved one experience a miscarriage and ways you can help.

-Bonnie

In 1988, President Ronald Reagan declared that October would be Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month.  Robyn Bear wanted a specific day to do something tangible to remember.  She chose October 15 to be Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  Every year she organizes a wave of light at 7 pm in each time zone.  View that event here if you are interested.

I created these Facebook cover photos for Pregnancy and Infant Loss Month.  So much emotion and so many tears went into this post.  You may download any of them that you would like for your personal use.  If you use one, I would love it if you would comment and let me know which one you downloaded.

I hope that these touch your heart today.

Much love,

Bonnie

-Bonnie